"To you from us"
Today's our 575th day na, but I think this is his first picture in my tabulas.
so, here, meet inch. at starbucks. doing teaching materials for my math class tomorrow. my dakilang inch.
Today, the 2009 Starbucks planner is already on display. This time, it's hardbound, has three colors (red, blue, black), and is very very simple. Too bad I wasn't able to take a picture. You only need 15 stickers this time - 7 regular beverages and 8 holiday featured beverages. Yes, the red cups are here! Get your promo card now!
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by tal at 11:26 PM on November 4, 2008
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I actually feel a lot better!
Well, Inch called tonight even when he wasn't supposed to, and we talked for about 2 hours - Just when I needed it most. Just when I was just about to go insane once again. He called just in time as my depression resurfaced. And again, I have fat eyes. I plan to get sleep tonight, though. I think I won't have a sleepless night this time. Unlike last night, and the other nights.
I actually feel a lot better. I told you so. Inch prayed for me over the phone. While he was doing so, I was thinking to myself "again and again and again and again and again.... " I mean, I've been praying for the same thing for weeks! Although the answer to it is yet to be, It's simply difficult to deny God's assurance that everything will indeed be very okay. it may only be okay now. But soon it will be Very Okay. It's His promise. I'm holding on to it. My Father knows how to keep His promises.
Meanwhile, I try. Inch thinks that I may indeed be going through a psychological thingy. I told him kasi that it's the first time that I felt so very lonely without a clear reason why. It's a little and too much of everything! My work, my finances, my family, my fellowship, my health, my relationship with Inch, my relationship with God, myself. Or maybe, it's none of these everything. Inch said I may be suffering from an unconscious emotional thingy. I keep calling it thingy, because I don't really understand what it is. The word that registered was UNCONSCIOUS-ly. Meaning - It's not really in my circle of control - I'm in a very depressive attitude right now, for a reason that only God knows what - and why.
I must admit. I might be in some sort of training right now. Training to be rough and tough. I have changed, haven't I? My first 6 months of teaching has taught me a lot, has changed me a lot, has made me learn about myself a lot. A lot that thinking about it makes me soooo sleepy na.
I told Inch I may be psychotic. Sinasabi ni Jasper yan before. But my psychologist assures me that I'm perfectly normal, although the depression has to go. Well, thank you Lord. I actually feel better now.^^
Currently listening to: Where did my baby go? (in my head)
Currently reading: 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by tal at 02:27 AM on November 3, 2008
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Show Me (John Legend)
I realized as I lay down to sleep
We haven't spoke in weeks
So many things that I'd like to know
Come have a talk with me
I need a sign, something I can see
Why all the mystery?
I try not to fall for make believe
But what is reality?
Where do we go?
What do we know?
Life has to have a meaning
Show me the light
Show me the way
Show that you're listening
Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me
Guess it's funny how I say thanks to you
For all you've given me
Sometimes the price of what you gave to me
I can't stop questioning
O God of love, peace, and mercy
Why so much suffering?
I pray for the world, it gets worse to me
Wonder if you're listening
When people go
Why do they go?
Why don't you choose me?
But someday I know
I'm gonna go
I hope you're waiting for me
Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me
Maybe we'll talk
Some other night
Right now I'll take it easy
Won't spent my time
Waiting to die
Enjoy the life I'm living
Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me
Posted by tal at 03:08 AM on November 2, 2008
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