what did i do to deserve another depression attack this early in the morning?

calm.your.mind.ronan 

Currently listening to: oasis - don't go away
Currently feeling: depressed

that's why i wanted to avoid that place as much as possible..

i won't get hurt. i won't be affected. i must stay strong.

..

there, i'm fine now.

Currently feeling: sorry for myself

I gotta admit this is totally weird - I'm actually enjoying life right now. I never thought of that unless I have a girlfriend. Or someone I'm crushing on (though..ahh nevermind ). Point is, I'm feeling a lot better now after everything that has happened during the past 4 months.

But..this past week too, I felt I had to do it..and I think everything's fine now..

Anyway, a week after finally giving up my freelance work, it has been totally refreshing for me. I felt that it was time to let go of that work so as not to feel any guilt anymore. I really wanna grow spiritually, and I'm damn serious with it. WHEW I never felt so free and rejuvenated. Much thanks to You

This past week, I met a lot of new people and old friends too. It was truly a breath of fresh air Hope I'll keep this up from now on.

Off to Atos. Billiards

 

Currently feeling: rejuvenated

I saw a hole. And i had to seal it.

So i braced myself for more pain. Getting some real and some unreasonable feelings from the bitterness box, i faced a no turning back point.

And i think it got the job done.

Years from now or if by chance you drop by here anytime from now, you'll know why i was like that last July 10, 2007.

Now you can be truly happy with him now. With nothing to hold you back.

Now you can erase your memories of me, forever.

It wasn't bullcrap at all..

Currently feeling: sad

I'm back here (yet again) at my Tabulas blog. It's been awhile since I wrote anything here. Lots of lessons learned along the way..and not-so-new wounds to heal. Hey, life goes on as they say..

This is home. Apart from the madness of the outside world..

Hopefully this will be a good start again for me.

Hopefully..

Currently listening to: Oasis - Champagne Supernova
Currently feeling: lethargic