Why do I feel this way
when I know you have someone that you're seeing each and every day?
Should I play this game of just being your friend
when I know that's not where I want it to end?

--Constantly

Feeling: confused

And sometimes I think he is like Yagami Light, and I, Amane Misa. He is quite intelligent beyond his years (or so I've heard), and I, well, I'm just your average student (or so I say). Often, I look down on Misa because she is just too... desperate, being used, well aware of it, does nothing about it, welcomes it even. And I despise that. I like him, but he knows, I know, that we barely know each other. And yet I ask him, ha! I ask too much of him. Not even pride can stand between Want and I.

"I want you to make me your girlfriend." -Amane Misa to Yagami Light

That is not what I desire... or so I say to my friends.

I am no longer pride personified when it comes to him.

Because we are only fictional characters.

And I am the fool in this story.


PS: Yagami Light and Amane Misa are characters from the anime/manga Death Note.

Listening to: Everything's Alright - JCSS
Feeling: sleepy

I like history.

People often tell me that history is useless. To a history nerd like me, such a remark is quite offensive, but, for some reason, the more they say crap things like that, the more I think of the importance of history. How are past events important you may ask? Simple. It affects your everyday life. Here are some of the reasons that I could think of:

Democracy was introduced in Ancient Greece. Every country has some sort of a government, and most 'free' countries are democratic.

"It is called a government of the people because we live in consideration of not the few, but of the majority." - Thucydides on Pericle's view of democracy

Religion. In a way, holy scriptures are like history texts. They tell us how our religion came to be. For example, the gospels in the New Testament narrate the life and death of Jesus Christ. History also informs us that religions in the world are somewhat connected. For instance, through Abraham and other patriarchs (and prophets), Judaism, Islam, and Christianity are connected. There is a war going on in Israel/Palestine because of people's selfish views about religion. If they only knew the history of their faith...

The objects we use and take for granted, such as the wheel (invention of the Mesopotamians). History is not about telling you to know who (when, where, why, how) made each and every object in your house, but to teach you to appreciate them. If those people in the past did not come up with that idea... oh we're screwed.

History is not only about Ancient Greece, Ancient Egypt, World War 1, etc. It is also about our life. The choices you made yesterday (your history) affect you now.

Some people claim that history is irrelevant to our day-to-day life (aka useless) because you cannot change it. And I tell them that it is not about changing it or dwelling in the past. History only wants us to remember, which, hopefully, would make us appreciate things.

Listening to: Simply Jessie - Rex Smith
Feeling: thoughtful