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can you believe that? good god!! i took a umm phone picture of my tummy this afternoon and send it to itchy. my lil' bro thinks im having twin. itchy says my tummy looks like a ball.. looking at the picture im thinking "damn i am huge!"
i cannot wait to get this pregnancy over with. im tired of carrying the extra weight. remember when i mention that i was 160 lbs or something.. well, im like 20+ now i bet. im scared to weight myself. it really is scary to see yourself gaining so much weight in just a few months. other then the weight my poor fingers is numb. at night when im trying to go to sleep my poor fingers feels like they are dip into hot hot water and it freakin' hurt. it's so sad. i cant sleep and im sooo tired. during the day time my poor fingers goes numb. WTH, yunno.. anyway, yup im ready to get this pregnancy over with.
after a few hours of sleep thursday morning before heading off to work. i was dead tired. shoulda block everything that was troubling me and slept like a baby, but couldnt... anyway, on my way to work -my mind was still trouble. things flew in and out like crazy. tears start flowing and i made a quick turn and BOOM flat tire. damnit! my cell phone didnt have really good reception, but i did happen to call my bro to come and help. after trying everything to get the tire pump up which didnt work. he had to go and buy a new one. got everything done by 11:30am.
gosh, what a week this has been. blame it on the hormones for these moodsway, but good lord im really hurting, yunno. geeezzz!
so after work, i was in really need of being around my own family. i feel the need of getting away from the husband for awhile.. so i bought some stuff for my niece and nephews and off to visit them after work. stay there til almost 7ish. OMG they're so cute and all grown up.
kenji when he was 5 months old | kenji now almost a year old
i was playing peekaboo with him when he was 5 months. caught a picture prefect! ^___^ right now he's crawling so fast and being pregnant i was tired after 10 seconds of chasing him just to hold him -i give up. lol
and here's kasumi. dont know her age. i think 2, maybe *shrugs*
i got her some new shoes, cant you tell? haha
yesterday i was craving for some India Cuisine. went online and found the closest one to us. got there around 2:29 pm. went inside and they told us that they were close and wont open til 5 pm. my poor heart was broken. i was not happy..... ah, it was my fault i shoulda called first. so we ended up going to Olive Garden. was not happy but i was full.
i miss my body. i really do! not that it was prefect to start with anyway. i just miss being able to lay flat on my tummy. being able to sleep on my left or right side with no problem. sleeping thru the night n not waking up every damn 30 mins to run to the bathroom. or worst having cramps on my legs and those headaches GOOD LORD GO AWAY!!! i miss my boobs too. now, they're just - heavy, big and ugly... lmao
god!
.. this whole pregnancy is really something tho.
the other day i was in the mood for some country song on the way home from work in Who's car. the husband dont listen to country that much. so i turn on the radio and Reba McEntire's The Greatest Man I Never Knew came on. listening to the lyrics, i was in tears.. i miss my daddy.. odd, really. i remember hating him so much.
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so strange thing happen yesterday night. ok, so, we went and got the crib. set it up. it looks so nice, but huge. it took all the spaces in the room, but i guess it's alright.. now all i need is a bedding set. anyway, afterwards maybe around 1:30 a.m. the husband decided to play some game and i decided to go to sleep. for some odd reason he went to my old bedroom to look for something and guess what he found... X was there. he came running, woke me up and was like, "hun, your turtle is not in the tank." i was like "whatever, let me sleep i got an appointment tomorrow morning." i did finally got up. took a glance at the tank and X was gone. i mean, he was G O N E ! went to the bedroom with the husband and there X was -in the corner hissing at us. it was scary. i was lost! how in the world did X got out of the tank and crawl all the way pass my bro's room, pass the bathroom, and into my old bedroom stuck in the corner???? i was confused!! there is no way that X coulda gotten out of his tank. well, maybe when he was still tiny, but he has gotten pretty big. so it's impossible... and he was hissing at us. i mean, hissing like a cat! strange, really really strange.... what's next cat and dog is gonna find a way outta their cage and start barking??
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i recieved a notice saying that my Doctors office is going to be closing in Sept 14. can you believe that? gawd!! so now im going thru the whole process of finding a new doc... which there's not many in this small town. Dr. Hall or Dr. Shin?? whom shall i pick? geezz i dont like the thought that they are male, but what choice do i have...
anyway, good friend, See just had her baby boy. 6 lbs and 19 in - i think - on Aug 25issssh or 26issssh lol i dunno. devon or divan is the name - i think. GOSH I DONT KNOW!! he look just like their first kid.
the bf's beloved 360 is broken. hahaha ^O^ im so happy!! he is getting it replace, but he prolly wont get it until a month or so. which made him so depress. seriously, that's all he talked about. stupid halo. stupid 360. what was i thinking when i got it for him? gosh!
my lilo bro went to cali on sunday morning. the house has been really quite since then. altho i dont do much at home either but sleep and eat most of the time.. but now, the thought of being home alone is kinda scary..
hrmm... baby's been kicking a lot... you know those tic-tac commerical. that's how my tummy kinda looks like... or like jelly when you shake it. he's been kicking pretty hard too. it dont hurt, it just makes me jump a little.
me and bf is going to buy the crib next month. im so excited.
thanks itchy! love ya! ^^
my 2nd trimester is almost over. 3 more months to go -can you believe that? after seeing See's baby and i couldnt wait to hold my own baby in my own arms, then the thought of going thru labor scares me.....
anyway, guess how much i weight..... 165!!! OMG!!! i've gain and gain and gain and just keep on gaining weight. goodness!!! i know it's the baby and it's for the baby, but i just never thought i would be over 150, yunno.... ahhh, hopefully i'll lose some of it after the baby.
your fingertips across my skin,
the palm trees swaying in the wind,
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you sang me spanish lullabies,
the sweetest sadness in your eyes
clever trick,
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well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
goodbye my almost lover
goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
can't you just let me be
so long my luckless romance
my back is turned on you
should have known you'd bring me heartache
almost lovers always do
we walked along a crowded street,
you took my hand and danced with me,
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and when you left you kissed my lips,
you told me you'd never, ever forget these images
well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
goodbye my almost lover
goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
can't you just let me be
so long my luckless romance
my back is turned on you
should have known you'd bring me heartache
almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
cannot drive the streets at night
cannot wake up in the morning
without you on my mind
so you're gone and I'm haunted
I'll bet you are just fine
did I make it that easy to walk
right in and out of my life?
goodbye my almost lover
goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
can't you just let me be
so long my luckless romance
my back is turned on you
should have known you'd bring me heartache
almost lovers always do
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"should have known you'd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do."
"did i make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?"
i like those two lines. this song reminds me of my past relationship.
