Yesterday, from 12nn to 10pm, at the UP Diliman Bahay ng Alumni, was the first ever Laruku convention here in the Philippines. Wahaha. I am happy that I was able to be a part of it. XD

At school, Aireen fixed my hair to look like that of my chosen character. My other friends helped a bit, too. I was so touched, I wanted to cry right in front of them to show how happy I am that they were supporting me even though none of them are an anime fan like me. I was saying all sorts of corny phrases while they were doing my hair, but I really meant those words. But I think they thought I was not very serious. XD

I joined the cosplay group NANA, a group formed in Filcosplay. Today was my first time meeting some FC people, and I think I'm lucky because my groupmates were really kind. XD It was only my second time in cosplaying (the first was last Toycon, when I did Meroko of Full Moon wo Sagashite, and my group was from Ichi), and my character is just what we call an extra . Michelle (my partner Takuto, and played Miu this time) picked me up at school. XD We arrived late but there were still a lot of members missing so I think it was alright.


I played Ichinose Satsuki, the "future" daughter of Takumi and Hachi (Komatsu Nana). I wore a red kimono and I hope I looked okay, ahaha. XD borrowed from Ate Merii. As I did not have any idea on how to properly wear it, she helped me dress up. So kind, isn't she? ^_^

Some of my groupmates were not able to come, for reasons I do not know. For one was Ashe. She was our supposed Hachi, and since she did not show up, she did not get the Ai no Kusabi copy she asked from me. (ack. I forgot to give it to Nichole instead! >_<").

To mention some of my groupmates, Takumi was played by Windracer (sempai XD), Naoki was played by Lab Rat, Scha played Hachi, Bloodymerii did Reira, Perfect Drug was our Nana O, Adz was our Ren if I'm not mistaken.. who else..uhm, I honestly did not get to know all of our members because we were so many. But the my favorite cosplayer today was one of us, our OKAZAKI SHIN, which was played by I-dunno-whats-his-online-nick-but-I-heard-that-his-real-name-is-Darryl. XD His outfit was really cool and so Shin-like, his piercings even if they were fake really looked cool on him, his height is not so far from mine, he's just 17, he studies at UP Los Banos with a course that I failed to ask due to shyness, whaaaaa~ I once again turned into a FANGIRL Ahaha. He is definitely my new prospect. Maybe I should stalk him one of these days. XDD

Ugh, ex-kras, forgive me for saying this pero walang wala ka kay Shin <3 Ack. *bangag mode na*

Anyway here's a pic of me with Nichole.
Click it and it will lead you to my Multiply where you can view the rest. Credits go to my friends Nichole and Michelle. XD


Surprisingly, very few people joined the cosplay event that it was laughable. XD There was only one person who joined the individual category and he played Tetsu and I did not get to see him. He won by default, how lucky. XD In the group category, we won. =3 There were only two groups who joined, nyahaha, the other one was Moonchild. I got to watch a part of their performance and I saw them dirty dancing while the song Vanilla was being played. We, on the other hand, only walked and posed around the stage all throughout the three (or was it five?) minutes alloted for us. As our price, they gave our group some posters and cds, and gift certificates from Tokyo Tokyo. I only had the last one, I did not bother wanting to have the first two since I did not give any effort on this. XD We winning did not even sink in much, since I expected Moonchild to have the spot.

Er.. okay, enough with cosplay..


I got to see Nichole and Akira again and I was really happy and thankful. I missed them so much. I have not seen Akira since Ai no Hi (con at UST), and I have not seen Nichole since she transferred to UPD. Thanks so much to Nichole, I finally have the series I have been longing to have. XD I saw Ate Eurie again, too. I have known her even before their group Soul Society Phil. was founded because Akira and I bought our Hitsugaya shirt from her (we were her first clients XD). As a souvenir, I bought a Bleach mug which I got at a 33% discount =3 and a Bleach cross-shaped necklace from their booth and I promised to join them once they are official formed.

I wanted to buy a Bleach pillow, too, but my budget would not make it. Maybe next time. XD Akira got herself a poster of Gackt and a mug, Nichole bought the same necklace that I got, and Michelle grabbed two posters, one of Dir en Grey and one of Kyo alone. Oh, I also met Kat (sp?), Akira's friend. She stayed not too long, so we did not get to talk much. Nichole and Akira left at 8pm, after they were satisfied with having a pic with Shin only. (since he was really the sole cutie there )

There was this token thing which you will give to your favorite cosplayer, and Shin was the one who collected the most number of tokens I think. I did not get to finish the event though, so I am not so sure. But I believe he deserves it the most. XD


There was also a fanart contest, and a singing contest, and other stuff were also there/also happened but I no longer know the details of those since I did not wander around much. XD


The last part of the event were the performances of several bands. Some were really hilarous. (I do not mean to give bad comments about them, but really.. ugh ~_~" some really sucked, bigtime) But there were a few notable, too. One was Progeny. One of their guitarists and their vocalist are girls and I liked them. They cosplayed Dir en Grey before, Michelle told me. They played Sakura Kiss and Glamorous Sky so I really enjoyed. The other group was Rtschrk, and I really admired their vocalist LUCIEL! Gosh. I melted right there, just by watching him. He is a pro, I tell you. Michelle even calls him TEH GOD, and she is seriously crazy about him. She even bravely asked for his autograph. XDD Take note, this girl has never been a fangirl of a real person before. Kyaa~! Now you see how great Luciel is? He transforms onstage, when he holds the mic and the his bandmates starts playing. He becomes a Rock God, ala Ryuichi of Gravitation. XD They played mostly Dir en Grey songs. Sadly, I am not (yet?) a Diru fan so I might have appreciated them less than Michelle and the others. But still, I was greatly captured by Luciel's voice, to my amazement my gaze was fixed on him alone. I probably will listen to those songs from now on, because of Luciel.


Mama went to pick me up. So caring a mother, I better be a good girl next time to return her love. ^_^

On our way home, I had a little adventure. When we got off the jeepney at SM North Edsa, a suspicious-looking boy approached me and asked me if there was something missing in my bag. He claimed that he saw some person trying to slash my bag. I checked and saw nothing missing so I did not take what he said seriously. At some point, Mama and I even thought the boy was just making it up and has a hidden agenda or something. T_T" Oh, so bad of us (I hope that guy would forgive us).

But when we got on the bus, I felt something coming out of my bag. And then I saw my cologne, which almost fell from the hole made. That was the time I realized some person truly tried to steal my things. My bag was slashed, because I was not paying attention since I was talking with Mama about the events at the con. The slash was surprisingly deep considering my pants was slashed along with my bag. Thank God my skin was not touched by the blade or whatever the weapon used was. And thank God again, really, because nothing was taken from me. >_<"


Mama told Papa and now my father seems like he will no longer allow me to go to future conventions that will be held at UP Diliman. That campus is really dangerous. I wonder how will things go when I ask permission for Ame next time. XD
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Feeling... happy

Listening to... Chieco Kawabe - Sakura Kiss (lss na talaga!)


1 simply smiled.

Gah. I am in a panic state because I still cannot grasp this horrible piece of information that I have managed to involve myself with A LOT of new cosplay plans. Argh. I just joined and joined without thinking and it seems like there's no backing out now. DAMN impulse. >_<"

*This coming Sept 16, I will be at L'arc Con -- UP Bahay ng Alumni. Joining NANA cosplay group as Ichinose Satsuki. (really fine. since bloodymeril will lend me her yukata XD)
*At UP Ame, I will be Yamato from Loveless. One of the Zero girls, the flirt one, the seme. *coughyuricough* (big problem is teh wig)
*Nov 18, Hero Con, I am RubyMoon from Card Captor Sakura. (problem is how to convince my mom to make my costume)
*PUP Con next year, I volunteered to be Yutaka Mikoto of Princess Princess. (I think I'll back out on this one when the date comes near and I already lost passion to the series..)
*Toycon 2007, around June I think, I will be on Suikoden group, as Viki. (Hell, I don't even know who she is. I haven't played the game and I never will. Gotta find a freakin GOODVALID excuse to pull myself out of this. X_X")
*No target dates yet: Me as:
*some character name Yuyuko from the unpopular game (popular in Japan, they say) Touhou, (I honestly am NO LONGER interested in this T.T")
*the lead character of Rozen Maiden, forgot her name, the doll with the red dress, (Same with Suiko and Touhou)
*Yukishiro Tomoe of Rurouni Kenshin, (I just want to have my own kimono ^-^)
*and probably (they haven't put me on the list yet, but I already asked for reservation), as either Tsuchiya Kirie or Madoka of Spiral ~Suiri no Kizuna~ (Totally undecided. I love Spiral, but neither of those two. The only character I WANT to do is Rio, but she is already taken. TT____TT)


I have no life.

Observation: As I'm getting more and more busy with my academic life, my cosplay plans increases.

Directly proportional? Oh, shit.

I know I have said that cosplaying is my form of diversion, but, it has become TOO MUCH to the point that all I'm doing is losing more control and self-discipline. And forgetting my principles in life in the process.

And I could not anymore withdraw myself. I no longer know how to go back.

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Reading... Devil May Cry



5 simply smiled.

Tomorrow is Mark's (codename: Messier) 18th birthday. As a treat to us, his Ichi family around Manila, he invited us to celebrate it with him in advance today. And it was soooo full of fun and memories~!! XDD



I was late at our usual meeting place (Foodcourt @ Robinson's Place Ermita) because of a certain IT-related meeting I just had to attend at school. Those who waited patiently for me were Han, Kuya Syl, Kana, and of course, the birthday boy, Mark. My arrival cued the time for everybody to eat. XD


We ate at Yellow Cab. While eating, we enjoyed playing the game called sharade(sp?), in which Kana was the one doing the actions and the rest of us were the ones guessing the thing/whatever she was thinking. It was easy because most of the words to guess are food/pizza related. He-he.

The whole time we were together, we were all teasing Kuya Syl. Because he has an irrational fear in cats, and Kana just happened to bring along her uber cute cat stuff toy. Poor Kuya had to endure carrying Ian (the cat's name, which was named after him actually.. XD) around while we were taking pictures and well.. making fun of him. I know, we're EBBIL. XD He even reached the point where probably, he could not take it no longer deep inside but just had to put up that I-can-survive-this face in front of us, because he straightforwardly asked us if we are really like that towards people having phobia. And of course we instantly answered "No". XD Ack. I hope he does not hold a grudge against us four. XD

We took some pictures before Han left. She had to go early because she has an exam tomorrow morning. Aww.


While Kuya Syl accompanied Han on her way out of Rob, the three of us went to buy desserts in Jollibee. We took the ice creams out and then we headed back to Food Court, where Kuya Syl was already waiting for us. (Seems like walking with Han from the third floor up to the P.Gil exit was faster than the service of Jollibee).


We ate our ice creams while talking about some pet-related and horror stories. XD I honestly started to feel a little bored during this hour.. maybe because it was already quarter to seven and I was already getting sleepy and tired. And came up Mark's idea of a "game", in which all of us, especially myself I think, had one of the happiest times of our lives. XDD


So, this is really the HIGHLIGHT of Mark's birthday celebration... FLAP.

Ahaha. So what is FLAP exactly, you might ask. The word already exists in the dictionary, but as far as we are concerned, it is a term we just coined a while ago. XD Well.. how should I put it.. as I said it is a game Mark started out of boredom that happened to catch MY interest so I joined in. Flup is the short term for "Flip the Cap", and I pertain to the caps of the ice cream cups we got from Jollibee. XD Basically, everything is about what that phrase literally means. Believe it or not, we actually enjoyed and became wild and incredibly creative all just because of flipping a cap. (or maybe I should say caps, because we eventually used three - two from the sundae which are of normal size, and one smaller from swirly bitz.)

In the beginning, it was just Mark trying his hardest to flip the cap. From the upright position ("nakatihaya" in Tagalog) he desperately wanted to make it land in the position in which the flat-bottomed side will be the one in contact with the table (ack, in Tagalog ulit, para talaga mas mapadali ang pagkukwento ko.. yung "nakataob" dapat XD). I got curious as to why he could not succeed, and so tried it for myself.. And then.. whaa~! I MADE IT!! XDD

And addiction ensued. XD I freakin' wanted to try it all over again, and so was Mark. I was teasing him for he could not do it as often as I could, and the next moment, we just noticed ourselves competing over who will have the most number of successes in this flipping game. Kana and Kuya Syl were our cheerful audience and Kana was so sharp she earnestly prepared her video cam and recorded our battle. XD

We were soooo having fun, we were all laughing like crazy, people around us might have already thought of us being mental patients who ran away from PGH. XD I was so engrossed with what we were doing that I totally looked like an idiot in the vid and the hell did I care. AHAHA. But of course, I am the FLAP CHAMPION. I beated him out fair and square, with an ending score of 30 over 24. *rofl* XD

But after that, Mark and I never got satisfied. We added the little cap and so used three caps now. Our goal was to make the three caps "nakataob", and again, I won. Then Mark and I soon dared each other to perform more "tricks" with those caps. Few we remarkably made were called with funny names by Kuya Syl. To mention:

- the Baby's Cradle: my first trick after I succeeded in "pagpapataob" of the three. (ack, conyo girl..XD) The "baby cap" (smallest one) lands over the bigger cap after the flip. Unfortunately, I only managed to do this once.
- the Cradle's Baby: exactly the reverse of my trick, which Mark managed to do. XD It is the big cap which lands over the baby cap. Mark is an expert on this trick, he can do it often. I, at first, thought I could never do it, but I did, too after a lot of trials. In the end, even Kuya Syl made it, so we called it a "common" trick and no longer an "amazing" trick. XD
- the Mother's Cradle: again, my trick. Here, the big cap lands over the other big cap, like kicking the baby out of their way. XD Again, this trick was never repeated.

We also imagined some more tricks that could be done (but we have not yet managed to do). Those I remember are:

-Royal Flash: the three caps are aligned and the baby is at the bottom and one big cap lands exactly over the baby and the other big cap lands over the first big cap.
-Flash Royal: the three caps are also aligned and the baby is at the top, and it's two parents are below.

By this time, we were all really addicted to our FLAP game. Kana was able to record again a video of Mark performing the Cradle's Baby (I mentioned already that he could do it several times). As we talked and laughed some more about FLAP, we said we wanted to make it a manga. Me being the lead of course. XD Kuya Syl said he will do it, some time. Then, high as we were, we took pictures of ourselves acting for possible 'manga chapter covers'. There were Mark and I appearing to play FLAP, and me laughing at him because he lost to me, and Kuya Syl being Mark's sidekick and a spy. We had a lot and our poses were really good, it was like an impromptu photoshoot. XDD

So now it became our 'live action manga' (lol, is there ever is such..). Kuya Syl said he will put captions on every pic and will edit it some more as soon as Kana uploads them. He probably will also edit them and make them a video and will upload them in youtube. Ahaha. Gosh, I am so looking forward to seeing those. XD


A simple game turned out really weird and exciting and ideas popped out of nowhere and since we are all anime freaks, we laughed hard and certainly enjoyed ourselves for reasons that normal people might think foolish. Our brains were all dead short after. XD


Ack. How sad that Han missed the fun. And Kuya Andre did not even come because he was "tied" at home. XD


Btw, I finally got Kana's promised video. It was a video of MY EX-CRUSH (if you would know who exactly I am talking about.) dancing with some cosplayer at CultuRev. Thanks a bunch, sis Kana!


SO AGAIN.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK!!! ^____________^

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Listening to... Hirano Aya - Bouken Desho Desho


4 simply smiled.

Much to my chagrin, I was not able to attend CultuRevolution con last Saturday. >_<" Despite my planning and excitement to go, my Math 74 lec exam just had to be at 4-6pm on that exact day. Argh.

Well, my friends who attended already fed me up with detailed info and pictures. Kana would also give me a video she got of a certain someone.. hehe. So no need for me to sulk even though I feel like "I missed half of my life" T_T"



Anyway..


Mark, Han, Kuya Syl, Kuya Andre (ack, I am not yet accustomed to that name XD. he has such a good name he should use it more often. for those who do not know: Kuya Andre is Kiya/Mr. Bear)and I met today at Rob Place. Each of us has his/her own reason for coming, I think.. XD

Kuya Syl came to see Han. lol. XD Kuya Andre *coughstillnotusedtocallinghimthat* and I molested Kuya Syl and his pc as usual, because of the new batch of anime series we requested for. Er, wait, so that makes it another reason for Kuya Syl to go to Rob. Mark, if I'm not mistaken, asked Kuya Andre to give him a copy of some kind of game. And Han.. well.. *cough* I believe she just wanted to see... US. XDD~

I am REALLY REALLY grateful to Kuya Syl. I mean, I have been abusing his kindness since Ichi's first eb. lol. I got loads of new series FOR FREE thanks to him. ^___^" I wonder how could I ever repay him. He only wants blank dvds in exchange. Ugh. I gave more a while ago. It was really nothing, but he almost did not want to accept it. Whaa. I wish I could express my gratitude better. T-T" Kuya Syl thanks a lot once again!

Kuya Andre is such a LATECOMER. Ack. The kind of people I hate the most!! lol, joke. (They say we get mad at those who are from the same kind as ourselves.. XD er, more common phrase in Tagalog: "ang magnanakaw galit sa kapwa magnanakaw". XD Revised, for this situation: "ang mga laging late galit sa kapwa na laging nalalate" ). And he was still wondering why I was so annoyed? Hah. The meeting time was 11am - 1pm! Everyone was delayed but at least we gathered together before 12noon. But what time did Kuya Andre arrive? Almost 1:30! I was almost late for my class, which was, thank goodness, cancelled because of our prof who attended a meeting. He was also late last time, the cause why I was not able to see them. So I assumed a while ago that he did it again on purpose of not seeing me. Hmp. Well, but I am glad I was wrong. I forgot to bring my cp but just now when I got home, I read a message from him that said "Nyanyan! Dont leeeeaaavveeee meeeee~! >3". Ahaha. Okay, that sure did the trick to change my mood. XD

I wonder when did we even start to be close. He is the sole person calling me Nyanyan. It's kind of weird, hearing it coming from him. But I am happy, sort of, even if I do not know exactly why.

Ack. But I just remembered. THEY WERE STILL TEASING ME ABOUT *toot*!!! Mark and Kuya Andre, and even Kuya Syl! They ganged up on me after Han left this afternoon.. T__T; They were all saying how disgusting *toot* was last CultuRev, and how pitiful I am because I missed seeing him doing that creepy yaoi stuff. (er.. the act of kissing. guyxguy. XD). Ahaha.

I wonder, too, myself. Why did I fall for such a guy in the first place? Ahaha. A yaoi fan (I thought he only liked yuri?). The type who'd kiss guyS (yes, based from the people who counted, he kissed five!) in public. A... bisexual? Looking back at THIS old entry of mine, I sure sounded like a totally crazy fangirl. Ack. My stomach's turning, I can feel it. >_<"

But anyway, all day I insisted that I do not like him anymore. I already explained it on that "Isang linggong paghanga" entry. They just would not believe me. Argh. It is no longer my problem. x_x; But, wait. Is it because I was grinning while saying my statement? ...and probably too widely? *remembers Kuya Andre's words... "hanggang tenga ang ngiti"..* Ack! *bangs head on monitor*

Well...whatever. XD May it be the case that I still have this laughable crush on such a guy, or not, I could no longer worry myself over this. Let's just see what will be my reaction when I see him again. Btw, even if I already stopped stalking him, I still obtained new info about him. I learned where he studies, and I realized that we have the same course. >_<"



Anyway...

Aww.. my online daughter Meira (Mei-mei, as I call her.. Mei-chan, as others call her.. or Isaak Ferdinand von Kampfer cosplayer if you want ). She is currently confined at Manila Doctor's Hospital at UN Ave. Fortunately, the hospital is merely a walking distance from our school and Rob, so the five of us decided to pay her a visit.

We were somehow lost at first. And then we were quite noisy when we got inside Mei's room. We were embarrassing. But anyway, it seemed like Mei was happy, and her mom (wait, ain't I her mom? XD) was happy. So I think everything's okay. Her (biological XD) mom even thought we were Mei's fans (because Mei is a cosplayer, in case you forgot). Ahaha~ XD



On my way home, I rode the LRT with Kuya Andre. It was his first time riding LRT 1, he said. lol. We were silent for some minutes, .(..waiting for the other to talk first? or was it only me? XD) but managed a short chat just before the LRT reached DJose station.
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Listening to... Chieco Kawabe - Sakura Kiss


8 simply smiled.

/* Studying.C
* a program that attempts to guide a student in his/her school life, especially during exams
* parts of this code which are of little importance were no longer typed, because of I'm lazy
* if you see a semantic error, kindly comment and inform me
*/

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...
...

if (no study = fail) then {
study(); /*calls the function "study"*/
if (study = fail ) then {
while ( (trying to cheer yourself up) & (until you pass) ) {
pray; /*pray is a predefined function*/
study();
}
output("yehey, you finally made it! you passed the exam and lived up to your parents' expectations ^_^");
}
}
else { /*means that no study = pass*/
output("well and good");
pray;
}

void study() {
do {
review your lessons when you got home;
try your best not to sleep while reading;
absorb as much details as your brain can handle;
eat before 9pm and get enough sleep;
remember to do all of this until you get a satisfying result;
}while ( keeping yourself away from the tempting computer as much as you could);
}

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That's what you get from a depressed ComSci student who suddenly realized that no matter how much she studies, there are exams in which getting high marks is nearly impossible.


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Feeling... frustrated

Listening to... Chieco Kawabe - Sakura Kiss


5 simply smiled.

I'M IN LOVE WITH HARU WO DAITEITA!!!!!!!!!!!! Whaaaa~!!! @____@"

I think I'll support and love this series and Youka Nitta forever. I just watched the two ovas and wow, you just don't know how happy I am right now. XD I don't know how to express my happiness anymore actually. I'm suppressing myself here since I started watching, I can't even squeal so I think I'll just stay grinning this big --> ^__________________________________________^ til later.

I can't risk being caught by my parents watching porn. They might ban me from using this pc for life. XD

Katou Youji and Iwaki Kyousuke are definitely my favorite yaoi couple. They're just the sweetest, I'm telling you. XD I've been following their love story since last year or two years ago I think through scanlated manga. I haven't completed it yet unfortunately. I'm not sure if it's already finished but the lastest I saw was vol 9. I only have up to vol 6, where they ended up being legally married finally. XD

This is not the type of yaoi that has obvious uke and seme, in the sense that both guys are really masculine in appearance. I mean, most yaoi or shounen ai have their semes being taller and bigger in build and ukes being so pretty and kind of demure. XD Katou and Iwaki occassionally change positions, too, when they do it. XD So it's really entertaining. lol. But Iwaki is probably the uke after all, since he's the one at the bottom most of the time.

A YAOI fan must watch/read this series!! Especially those who LOVE cheesy, sweet, romantic and touching moments between guys. Ahaha XDDD~


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Feeling... giggly




stay calm.

I was on duty this afternoon, and because there was no work to do Ate Madel allowed me to abuse teh internet. XD Ate Madel and Ate Kristine usually leave early and they're fine with leaving me alone in the office as long as I don't stay too long. But I was so happy posting at Filcosplay forums that I didn't notice the time. XD That it was already past 6pm and everyone at PGH almost already left because office hours end at 5pm. T_T"

That's the reason why I was nearly locked up at PGH. The last person who stayed late besides me assumed that everybody else has already went home, and she turned off all the lights. The sudden darkness that surrounded me frightened me, really.. and moreover I was so afraid that she'll lock the main door in the hallway and I'll not be able to go home for the entire weekend because today is Friday. @_@"

It's all because of this interesting thread in FC - "anime characters we love to hate" and fellow FC members namely Aki17, dycee26 and scha-clyne. Oh and Chi, too. XD (I hope it's fine to mention their usernames here.. ahaha~)


It was so fun having a discussion with these people. They were all so nice even though I'm a newbie, and because I actually know their topic, I joined in their discussion. We have different preferences so exchanging point of views with them was really fun, and at some point, funny. XD Aki, scha and dycee fumed when they've read my post about Cagalli Yula Athha. They happen to like Cagalli as a character and as Athrun Zala's love interest, while I hate the said character and I definitely don't support AsuCaga pairing.

- Aki was kind of hot-headed in the beginning, and for a moment I was lost in my thoughts because she really sounded mad because of the what I typed.
- On the other hand, Scha was around in the middle, since she was contradicting me and at the same time saying that "yes, Cagalli had some flaws in GSD which can be really irritating."
- And then dycee, I don't know if she just doesn't want to argue much or she's really the okay-we-have-different-opinions-I-respect-you kind of person. XD

But gladly, we have this in common: we all hate Uchiha Sasuke and Fllay Alster. XD (and of course Miaka and others, too..but I won't mention each and every character since the list is long ~_~)

Then here's Chi, who said that she liked Fllay. She explained well her point. ^_^ But I actually already had someone before who said something similar regarding why Fllay's a bitch like she is. I get their sides and at some ideas I agree, but in the end I still firmly believe that she shouldn't have used her body to get Kira dirty. XD



Like what we've all been repeating a while ago, it's all just about respect. XD You earn new friends through respect. A little politeness and calmness won't hurt.

And a healthy discussion always brings a smile on one's face. I wish I could get to know more of fc members soon. Ahaha. Since I've joined two groups in them already. XDD

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Feeling... silly




3 simply smiled.

Ever since I tried cosplaying, (that was just last June 18, at Toycon), I've been having this feeling of unusual excitement inside me. I want to cosplay more, to do more characters and more series..

I have tons of plans that I want to be executed as soon as possible even though I don't have any funds for all of them to begin with.

Even though I'm just a newbie at this field and I don't really intend it to be my career in the near future, I'm always daydreaming about cosplaying.

You can say I'm getting nuts. Because there's school to always be considered as my top priority in life, and here are anime, manga and internet that I couldn't live without, and although I know all of this and I'm very much aware of how busy my life is already, I'm still wanting to do things beyond my reach. I maybe losing some of the screws in my brain but, I don't know.

It's like, worrying about cosplaying instantly became part of my daily routine.

What is cosplaying, really? Besides wearing make up and probably accessories, too which you don't usually have, and being on fancy/weird clothes you don't originally have in your closet and you don't plan on wearing on normal occassions. And besides being like a celebrity even if for one day, with fans wanting to have a picture or two with you while you're portraying this imaginary persona and trying your best to stay in character during the entire event. I've been asking myself what do I earn myself with cosplaying that I'm wanting to do it some more ever since I had my first time.

I don't bother myself much about how other people defined it on their own terms, but as for myself, I think, I only see it as my way to escape away from reality. From the busy world where I've been staying. I'm in a constant struggle to balance my life as it is, I've been trying to juggle everything with my two hands and failing at each trial. Whenever I'm feeling that my life really sucks it's like I want to become somebody else... another person who is far from the real me, the inorganized, irresponsible, uncreative, good-for-almost-nothing me.

Plus, I do cosplaying behind everybody who knows me in real life. I do it with my online friends who I'm very much comfortable with, and at a place where there's less risk of being caught by the people I know personally. I do it with people who share the same interest as me, and who don't know much about me in my real world. It might sound strange but, I think at times I'm even more happy whenever I'm with them than when I'm with my school friends. Because we accept each other easily, although not for "who we are" as we don't know who each other are that much, I feel free to act anyway I want around these people. I don't feel shy and I don't bother to wear a mask full of pretentions. I don't hide anything since they don't care anyway whether I hide something from them or not. We always just want to be happy together, and having fun is one of the best things in life you get for free.

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Hmn. I wonder why I'm babbling this much. I'm not sure if I'm still making sense. Gonna end this here. XD


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Listening to... Yuna Ito - Journey


8 simply smiled.

I suppose I got over him a little too quickly. XD Well, it's not like I seriously fell head over heels for him in the first place, but.. for some time I even actually thought I'm already in love. Stupid, I know.

But this thing common people normally call as "crush" lasted only for a week. Ahaha.

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I saw him a month ago, in an anime cosplay competition I joined. I don't know how he stood out among the rest of the participants there, I mean, there were so many groups and I was not particularly interested in their group, let alone in his chosen character. But I know for sure he caught my attention, because while I was sitting dumbly in one corner with my friend, my eyes were unconciously following him wherever he goes.

I did not stare for him that long, but for the entire time I was watching him, I realized how good he was at portraying his character. In addition to the fact that he really looks like the anime guy physically, he also emits the similar aura. It was maybe because of this that I started to like him.

Or so I thought. I almost already forgot him after that event.


But one day, somebody informed me about the NCC (National Cosplay Competition, a.k.a. Ozinefest 2006). I checked out the 99 contestants on cosplay.ph and poof! How surprised I was when I saw him there! XD

He was again, in that pose so like the anime character he was immitating. I can't help but laugh at how overwhelmed I was with his pose. Imagine, I decided to vote for him even though I don't know him personally. And I even printed out a copy of that picture of his just because I was so fond of looking at him. (even though his face can't even be clearly seen! ahaha!)


NCC day came and of course I went (this was just last Sunday). Our group didn't join so we had all day free to roam around and chase cosplayers and take pictures with them. I did not have a chance to look for him in the morning, but I finally had my luck in the afternoon. I spotted him outside the hall of Le Pavillion, eating his lunch. XD

I grabbed the opportunity and managed to have two nice shots together with him with my dear online Onee-chan's help (I didn't mind that I was being a bother XD). I was so happy I thought I'd collapse right there.

Situations that followed next drove me more deeply to madness. Wherever I went on that day, I noticed that he was practically always near me. Just about a meter or two away. THAT NEAR, I tell you. And it's really like, "he's so near yet so far". I couldn't anymore take my eyes off of him. Even if I was talking with some other friend, or taking a picture with some other cosplayer, I'd still watch him from afar. No wonder I caught a glimpse of these two fangirls getting his autograph.

Boy, didn't that made me nuts even more (if I could be crazier than I already was, that is). I was like, "wth! I want to see his handwriting, too! If they could do it, why couldn't I?!" and then dragged myself and Patteh to the Otakuzine mag stand nearby and bought myself the latest issue. Then I asked Lola to get his autograph for me because I realized that I couldn't after all. I was lucky though, I had a bonus even if it was not me who did the task. Not only did he sign but he left a short message, too. And he also wrote his email add. XD

Just so you know, this is the first time I've become a real FANGIRL.

Me and some friends decided to go home early afterwards. I regretted it the day after, mind you. I didn't know he was at the top 50 and so I missed the chance of seeing him... "performing" onstage. Everybody else who stayed told me. T_T"


After Sunday, my own actions surprised me. I became a fangirl and a STALKER in one. Yes yes, I did my best to follow him over the internet. I joined the forums where he was, I regularly checked his friendster account, I waited and waited for the day to come that I'll be able to add him on YIM. But that one didn't. XD Anyway, I was contented with just that. Even if he didn't seem to even know my existence, I was happy.


That's why I thought I was already in love. XD I mean, I knew that love could make people do the most stupid and most embarrassing things on earth. While grinning like a total idiot, I was telling everybody that I finally found a love interest. I was craving for more knowledge about him. I was imagining a lot of things, I was daydreaming whenever I have time. I was thinking about him 24/7 to the point that I couldn't even concentrate on my classes and exams. This guy, who was just some weeks ago a total stranger and a nobody to me, was able to make me to those stuff that I never imagined I'd ever do in my life.


But nobody can't seriously fall for somebody he/she doesn't know in real life. I knew that so I counted the days that I'll be crazy for him. XD


I had this target: to see a video or even just a picture of him in his moment onstage that I missed last Sunday. I bugged almost all of my online friends to give me a copy of that if they happen to have one, but of course I was the only person who has this big crush on him so nobody didn't actually have.

But just yesterday, after a week of searching, I finally found a picture. You know how I reacted after? I simply smiled a satisfied smile.

Haha, I didn't make exaggerated moves like what I thought I'd do after I see him like that. I didn't even make a noise. I didn't celebrate, I didn't jump for joy, my heart felt nothing more than self-satisfaction. And that was not even because at last I saw him, but because at last, my quest for picture-hunting is already done. My week-long longing for him is over as well.


It was fun admiring someone. I learned a lot of things, I met some new good people, I accomplished some task I left unfinished before, all just because I stalked this guy. But it's over now. I no longer feel that excited about him. XD

Some of the feeling still exists here, I think, somewhere in my heart, but it's no longer occupying a big space. Maybe it'll grow again if we actually become friends and I get to know him more. Who knows. XDD

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Feeling... cheerful

Listening to... Atsushi Miyazawa - Kimi to Deatte Kara


stay calm.