jepay

Jepay

my baby,my life
the reason I strive harder and
try to be a better person...Love you so much Bunini!!!

Jepay

It has been the moment for the rest of the family
That no matter what has transpired in the past,blood
will always be thicker than water. In the face of adversary,family
will always be there no matter what. This time, we have been united by
a fateful turn of events that has toll upon us all,courtesy of my
irresponsible cousin. It has been an eye opener to all of us..
And hopefully we'll face this problem as one. We will be forever
binded by blood..and family ties

Jepay

I have never been lucky in love.. I have accepted that for a fact,
But I am very aware how lucky Iam with my work. That I can provide for myself and
my kid. Very much independent... but when it comes to love, it rocks me
to my very core, though people may not notice it. They view me as a strongwilled
person, and I hope I will continue to be that strong..But inside, am dead with the 
bruises I got from falling in love until such a time I can no
longer feel the pain.. speaking with an ex..breaks me,makes me weak though I may not show it,
but I falter everytime. It was inside that I cried, how I wanted to break free from the
walls I have built around myself. How I wanted to  love endlessly,
like Ive never loved before. Love like I will never get hurt again..
I wanted to embrace him and tell him how much I hurt without him. That he's so near yet
so far away..
That I wanted to stay but he continues to slip away. I wanna hold him and tell him
I will never stop loving him.. But I simply cant beg, the only thing left in me is
my dignity.. I will once again feel the emptiness and sorrow he brings me everytime he gets close
I have been trying to conceal it by working hard
and letting time pass by. How I hope he would just go away and be happy with his life...
I hope the best for him, for thats what love is... loving someone until it hurts..loving without expecting
loving by sacrificing one's happiness... for letting that person you love be happy
whatever decision he makes, including the decision of living a life apart  from me..
spending it with someone he claims to love more...
how tragic,how true,how can love be so selfish...

Jepay

This has been a hell of a month for all of us.
There are some family matters we need to handle.
But the worst thing that struck me is when my cousin
came here in Manila from Tacloban. I pity her for
having to go thru such ordeal. She was like a sister to me
And when she started telling me the truth about her life.
I just felt crushed. After all,blood is always thicker than water
She's like a sister to me, we grew up together.We know
a lot of things about each other not all people knew not even
our parents, were sisters by heart. And it breakse me to see her
miserable... I hope she can make a new start out of this.

Jepay

Mom and I went to the mall to buy some cd's
I was happy with the new cd I bought
I think I needed music nowadays. I'm kinda stressed
these past few days. And I may need to detox
Diet starts on Sunday.. Hopefully.