November 24th, 2008

Things To Do/Try Before Saying, "I'm Done Being Single!"

1. Love too much get hurt in the end.

2. Meet the perfect guy but realize that he's taken

3. Travel abroad for leisure

4. Go clubbing with friends until daytime

5. Get too drunk and pass out

6. Have artistic nude photos taken

7. Meet a new guy everyday for a week

8. Get promoted to a managerial post

9. Save upto 500k!

10. Make love with a stranger

11. Go to a bar alone

Posted by darkthoughts at 11:38 AM | whisper it to me

October 27th, 2008

promises

i don't really know what this word means now.

Posted by darkthoughts at 04:53 PM in crazy me | 1 whispered

Back To Being Me

My friends commented that I wasn't me in that past 6 months... That was me contented and happy. And now I'm back to being myself again, depressed and alone inside but fun-loving, perky and unafraid on the outside.

Currently listening to: barking of dogs
Currently feeling: blank
Posted by darkthoughts at 01:49 PM in crazy me | whisper it to me

September 23rd, 2008

fallen into the abyss again

yeah, life is a wheel, a circle, a cycle. i was happy for a few months, maybe. But now, i'm miserable again. i really can't stay happy for a long time, can i? the thing is i don't think i deserve this feeling.

i guess you already know Spook. well, he was the reason that i was happy. i had hoped and wished that i already found "the One". I even pictured myself already in a house wth a lawn with my kids and Spook. Then all of sudden, the wheel turned. Spook is the reason I'm depressed. Ironic, huh? maybe I'm met to be alone and miserable my whole life? maybe he's not yet "the One"? a lot of maybes. All I'm sure of is that i'm pretty hurt. If words can only express the pain inside, i would have had wrote it here a thousand times.

 

  

Posted by darkthoughts at 04:44 PM in gugmang giatay | whisper it to me

August 24th, 2008

Am I Sure?

I'm already 25. Most people consider this the marrying age. I am ready, yes. And God knows that it is my secret wish to have a family of my own with 2 or 3 kids, living in a two-storey house with a great lawn and a white fence. You may include a cute dog as a pet in the picture and 2 cars (1 for me to bring the kids to school and for my husband to go to work).

But somehow, I do not know if my personality fits the wish. I can never be a housewife or a soccer mom with my strong and competetive personality. When I think about me managing a big company, I find it more plausible than having a perfect family life.

 

Currently listening to: faith hill
Posted by darkthoughts at 06:54 PM in crazy me | 1 whispered

June 14th, 2008

So I passed Series 7

I can't believe I passed Series 7! Well, scratch that. I did somehow expect to pass but I really thought that I'd get a grade below 80%. So I was surprised to see that I got 81%.

I was supposed to go out with a co-trainer. However, we got corny and decided to stay home and relax. 

There's still Series 63 this Friday. Wish me luck! 

 

 

Currently feeling: pleased
Posted by darkthoughts at 04:05 PM | whisper it to me

May 5th, 2008

happy

i never thought that happiness like this could be possible. i feel so blessed and alive. maybe 2008 is really a good year for me.

i'm dating someone who treats me the way i want to be treated. he's the most caring guy i've met. he pampers me even if i resist. he makes me feel special. finally a guy who likes me more than i like him.

also, i've been performing well at work and my boss has praised me several times. she even said, "you're very reliable". and as a result of hard work, patience and passion with what i do, i was certified as a trainer in our company last april 21. and i was the first trainer to be certified. of course, the certification also deals with an increase (shhhh... don't tell my parents.). i will be feeling the increase the next pay day which is next week!

and beginning this week, i am undergoing Series 7 training. there will be a qualifying exam and i have every intention to pass. which reminds me now to study... See you later!

 

Currently listening to: yelling gamers
Currently feeling: happy
Posted by darkthoughts at 04:56 AM in crazy me | 1 whispered

March 30th, 2008

guy magnet II

There goes my weekend. *sigh* Can I just say that it's too short? I know everyone will agree. Well, it has been productive. I was able to go to an acquaintance's birthday celebration (no booze for me), send a boxful of toys and magazines, watch a good movie and go to a doctor for a check up.

I won't be really writing about my weekend. It's about being the "guy magnet" again over the weekend. So it started, rather continued, when I went to Marikina for a birthday celebration. I didn't really know where they live so i just rode a cab and asked the driver to take me to Marikina Riverbank. I guess I was really unlucky because I ran out of load. I just decided to call the gf of the celebrant through a pay phone  in a 7 11 store to let them pick me up. While I was waiting for them, a guy started to ask for the time and he added, "Pauwi ka na?".

I just answered a short no and gave him an intimidating look.

"Saan ka papunta?"  he asked again.

"To a friend's house." I answered with an irritated tone.

"Samahan kita? Ako pala si ... (I forgot the name hehehe.)" Wow! He's makulit. I know the that he wouldn't stop so I decided to wait inside the store.

When I thought that he was gone, I went out to wait. Then another guy talked to me.

"Saan ka, miss?" the taxi driver asked.

"May susundo po sa akin." I just gave him a direct answer because I don't want to deal with another makulit

"Eh nagtatanong lang. Baka kako pwede ka naming ihatid." he answered. Whaaat?! He will be with another person when he would bring me to my destination? Scary! Good thing, the couple arrived.

There were some unlucky instances before we reached the celebrant's house (like car not starting). So when we arrived, most of the people were already drunk. There was this big guy who probably had a quarrel with his gf. Let's call him Shrek. He offered to take me home. I agreed because I thought he was trustworthy. When we were on our way, we decided to drop by the riverbank. I wanted to make a stop over because I was afraid that we might meet an accident with the way he was driving. We walked for a while and talked. But he tried to make his move on kissing me. Luckily, I was able to duck. What a jerk! We were talking about his gf and how a family must stay together and he tried to do that? And he didn't stop there. He still tried for the second time. I couldn't just slap him because I know it will embarrass him. I want him to realize his mistakes, not slap him his mistakes. Then again, I guess I should have slapped him because he was already asking me to go to a motel with him. WTF! I thought Shrek was a good guy but I was proven wrong. He is an OGRE inside out. When he was being makulit on going to a motel, I bitched out and told him I'll take a cab. So he brought me home. But I guess he couldn't realize that I was already irritated since he still asked me if he could stay in my place for the night. I gave him one of my fake smiles and said, "Bye!". Then I crossed the street.

I guess I don't want to hang out with the group anymore. There goes my social life. The "guy magnet" doesn't have a social life anymore. It should have been fine if I just attract the good ones, but the unfortunate Amor only attracts the rotten ones.

Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by darkthoughts at 06:43 AM in crazy me | whisper it to me

February 10th, 2008

I Could Not Ask for More by Edwin McCain

This is THE song I've always wanted to hear from a guy. Maybe I'll ask God if He could make this as a sign. If a guy sings this for me while staring into my eyes, he will be the person I'll be with for the rest of my life. --Nah, too childish. Regardless of what purpose the song will serve, I just simply love hearing this.

Lying here with you,
Listenin' to the rain,
Smiling just to see,
The smile upon your face,
These are the moments,
I thank God I'm alive,
These are the moments,
I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need,
Everything you are,
Is everything to me,
These are the moments,
I know heaven must exist,
These are the moments,
I know all I need is this,
I have all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.

Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
Yeah right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .

These are the moments,
I thank God I'm alive,
These are the moments,
I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more. . .

Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
And right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .

I could not ask for more than the love you give me,
Cause it's all I've waited for . . .
And I could not ask for more,
I could not ask for more.

Currently feeling: geeky
Posted by darkthoughts at 03:34 PM in gugmang giatay, crazy me | 2 whispered
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